Tomorrow is the day, however I still spending myself in KL.
I called mom early this morning, greeting her 'Happy Mother's Day'. I heard her voice sounds so happy as her daughter gave her a warm morning greeting. It was a very short conversation because I was frustrated and annoyed with my coming exam papers. She's dissapoined. Dad came to KL this morning before sunrise. That's symbolized, my mom have to spend her mother's day alone, with herself only.
I started to choke and hold my tears. As the only one daughter, I should spend more time with my parents. Yet, I leave them 4 years ago just to pursue my studies. I know there's nothing to be blamed, as it would be the progress suppose-to-be.
But, when think of leaving both of them behind while I also spend my time with only myself, the tears just flood up my eyes. Sometimes, dad have to go outstation, or even overseas, mom was left at home. Not to say she works in the daytime, at night, the only one that response to her is the TV shows. *sobs*
During semester break, she's the happiest one. Planning that shopping with me once i go back to penang. Phoned me,
'Sorry ah wey to disturb you, when u're back, what you want to eat?'
She plans everything before i back. Yet, she's so afraid of disturbing me when im having exams. And so stupid utar, the whole schedule full of test, presentations and exams..It makes me so negelected on my parents, especially My Mom.
She never bought nice dress or good products for herself, but to her daughter. Luckily after her daughter has grown up, she started to enjoy her life, bought herself some nice blouses and skin care for her allergic face.
I always try to save money, not to let my mom worry about the expenses. People laughing at me, why? As that's a routine, you use your parents' money, soon your children will be spent on yours. Ya, I never reject this theory, but sorry to say that, the life that I've gone through with my mom, I've just....I've told myself that my mom always my most precious one. And I know there'll be some conflict in the future, I still dont know how to manage it, I hope there'll be some compromising commitment.
Mom, hereby I've something to say:
Mom, nothing to worry your daughter. Enjoy your life.
Promise that I'll spend more time with you after exam.
Your baby has grown up to 22. But, She still insist to say:
*so wanted to hug mommy now*
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